day 1...

i was stubborn and did go in today without a portacath. so, i came home with an iv that they capped off but will be able to use for the next three days and then remove it. it doesn't hurt. i have some sort of webbing wrapped around it to keep it from getting wet or from having the boys pull on it. they haven't even noticed it yet. but i didn't have to have surgery, and i still have one hand free to hug my boys, and that's what i wanted to be able to do.

i'm not feeling any symptoms yet, other than being exhausted/tired. i could barely keep my eyes open by the end of the three hours. nurse said if i were going to feel symptoms they would start by the weekend. so, i'm still crossing my fingers that i have already survived my worse. hair should be gone in the next few weeks, but if losing my hair is the most that happens, you really won't hear me complaining (i may just cry a little bit).

so that's that in a nutshell. shauna took me today which gave me time for great laughs and great conversation. everyone in there is always so reverent and quiet. i hope we don't cause too much of a raucous. anyone wanna join the party tomorrow?! the bus leaves at 930...and because i've got a line in, the appointment should only be an hour. i can't guarantee the trip will be traffic free, but i can guarantee some laughs and possibly some taco bell on the way home...awesomeness if you ask me.

c-day...

my start date is september 21. (c-day = chemo day)

i am trying to cram as much as i can in the next two weeks because statistics show i shouldn't be too sick from this round of chemo (meaning, other people don't get sick from this but i will be violently ill from this as previous experiences have shown).

approximately three weeks after september 21 (eta october 12) i should be bald.

anyone who would like to sympathy shave with me - i'm not being proud - i am taking you up on your offers.

to those of you that don't - well - poo on you.